Medium Build


Nicolas Carpenter
Medium Build

I watch a lot of TikTok, I spend around 1 hour per day swiping through the videos, looking for gems of culture, looking for connection to strangers.

I swiped into Medium Build landing on a hyper short clip from a live recording of the song Rage. The lyrics immediately struck me like a ton of fucking bricks. A revelation.

My sadness was born of internal rage. I was 48 the day I learned this about myself. It took me 48 years and some change to learn a core conceit about myself. I am forever grateful to Nicolas for his lyrical magic.

When I listen to his songs, I feel like I'm 16 all over again unlocking myself, learning how to be human, adult me both in the distant future and a faded memory.